http://www.ryangraber.com/blog ryan mah graber blog Sat, 06 Dec 2008 04:53:34 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en In 1998 I was in love with Ministry. They were the only band I had ever cared about, a love unrivaled by any band since. I'd wear this  shirt with a guy waving an american flag with bloody meat dripping down his head, the cover to their sixth album, Filth ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=35 When I didn't recieve my absentee ballot in New York this November I wasn't too concerned. I was sure that everything that I wanted was a sure thing. I woke up to an Obama America with a text message on my phone that read "Shame on you America! Lets protest...". ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=34 The Microphones were my first venture into the tactile realms of music. I've always been a tech junky, I had a mp3 player before I had any mp3s. But there was something about the Glow Pt. 2 that compelled me go  to the Laney College flea market and buy a ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=33 In Oakland I had a lot of people cutting my hair. I can't remember paying more than a pack of cigarettes to trade for services rendered. I got some pretty good haircuts from my friend Kara Joslyn, she'd spend 4 hours on it every cut, which was nice for a ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=27 I love Spam. Its not an ironic, fetishistic infatuation. Its a true appreciation for the meat; its resourceful flavor, and its indestructible enclosure. Its not because I'm asian, and I loves things that come with right angles, encased in steel. Its not the novelty of canned luncheon meats or the ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=25 When I was seventeen, I realized that if I ever got thrown into a gun fight, I'd die within the first 15 seconds. I wouldn't be the hot shot cop, I wouldn't even be his partner that goes out in a blaze of glory. I would be the busboy that ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=24 Sometime in the last few years, I've started obsessing about pig hunting. I've fallen in love with the idea of taking down a wild pig with my bare hands, gutting it with a knife and cooking it over an open fire. I've never been into hunting and/or gathering, but I've ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=21 Its not often that I love something more than myself, but there are a few exceptions. Speed Racer is one major exception. When I was a little kid, they used to play it after Beavis and Butthead, and I instantly fell in love. But staying in love has been an ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=20 For some odd reason, AMC has been playing alot more Death Wish these days. 5 years after Charles Bronson's death, theres really no reason for this sudden interest in the series. Especially since 3 out of the 5 are too terrible to watch. But Charles Bronson still stands as my ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=19 I think we're always at ends with our emotions. I'm constantly fighting between what I feel, and what I know is right. I hold these feelings back so I don't appear crazy or temperamental. The eternal fight between the mind and the heart has ripped apart the brains of geniuses, ... http://www.ryangraber.com/blog/?p=18